Take Me Back to Normal

What is it they say? If you want to make God laugh tell her your plans? Well, I hope someone up there is laughing because I certainly am not. I am fed up. Actually that’s F.E.D. U.P. with a good half a dozen exclamation marks for emphasis. (!!!!!!!!) For fear of seeming to contradict more…

Cannabis and Me: Breaking the Law to Live

I I have just celebrated the second anniversary of the day I almost died. But I didn’t. I have also just passed the two-year mark from the day on which I received a diagnosis of stage 4 lung cancer. And last week, the long-awaited scan results from the first phase of the trial I am…

Life is Like a Box of Chocolates

“Life is a box of chocolates, Forrest said, “you never know what you are going to get.” I couldn’t agree more. These words have been dancing around my head for some weeks now. A reflection of just how life has been these last few months. Many describe the experience of cancer as a roller coaster….

3 Ways of Healing – #Medical

Perhaps if I had been born in another time, another country, another town, in another family, with another name and the planets had aligned in the heavens in a different configuration, then maybe none if this would have happened. I would not be the person I believe myself to be. When I look in the…

Feather

                                                                            (Lion of Judah – Sophie Wilkins) Don’t take away my hope, it isn’t yours to steal Stop…

Death and the Elephant

There are some days not quite as bright as others, even when the sun is shining. The dark clouds of grief, or fear, or anger, or helplessness just roll on in like an impending storm to obliterate any rays of hope and possibility. The elephant in the room looms impossibly loud and large, knocking the…

When No One’s Looking

You came to me last night as you promised you would Under cloak of night a million blinking night sky eyes like fire flies bearing witness to our secret rendezvous Where I poured out my heart and hopes beneath your watchful gaze so silent still, and in the silence in the space between the breath…

To prognosticate or not to prognosticate

“So what’s your prognosis?” If I had a pound for every time someone asked that question, well, I could probably fund a feet-up, rub-down weekend at Champneys. But I’m just going to say it – it royally p***** me off! I made the choice not to ask for my oncologist’s prognosis as to my impending mortality….

The Benefits of facing a Challenge

As if life were not currently challenging enough, someone in their wisdom, namely myself, decided that more challenge was required. “Why not organise a talk?” I said to no one but myself. Seemed a brilliant idea in the moment. Never mind that perhaps my attention should be on more pressing matters, such as my health….